I'm sort of back. I'm sort of not back. School sucks, but I've gotta finish it... then I dunno what I'm gonna do after that. Whatever. I'm alive.

First, I want to address this.. have you ever gotten the feeling that someone is telling the person you love lies about you to get at you for something? I feel like that is happening now to me. It's really a horrible feeling and it's really filling me with anger. Now the person I admire so much is doing their best to ignore me and deny my existence despite her knowing how much I care about her.

Next, after my ordeal with my vehicle skidding to a halt on someone's trailer, my mother's car hit a deer. She called tonight and is very hurt about it. I was almost in tears when I heard her on the phone and heard her almost hyperventilating. I thought she had gotten hurt badly, and in a way she was. It was more than just the car though, rather it's her... She was shattered and shaken by the shocking occurrence. I'm only glad that she is okay and not hurt at all.

Next thing is that I got a Wii today. I traded in so much stuff to GameStop (Where I also work) to get the thing and it is so AWESOME. I've only got the sports game at the moment, but I want to get something else soon (Smash Bros. Brawl, No More Heroes).

Everything will be okay soon, though. I can feel it.

I got into a car accident the other day. Now, I am in debt again. I need about $2500 I think to cover all the expenses from repairs on my vehicle to insurance costs in June. I don't know what to do.

About all I can do is work so I can pay off all of my debts. All of my paycheck and Christmas money from relatives is gone now so I have to start from scratch. I've really done it this time.

For a nominal fee, I will happily assist anyone with writing lyrics for songs, or other reasons, because it's all I can do. I can't draw anything worth a damn, and I don't make enough money from work alone.

Yep, I said it. I'm in the clear. I no longer have to worry about finding insurance money. I've made a compromise with my dad. I just have to start doing better in school, though. I lack work ethic. I admit it, my work is very slack in effort. I've been trying to change for the past 3 years, but old habits stick like goop to plastic. It's not going to be easy. There isn't much time left to fix things, but I think I CAN pull it out. It won't be the most comfortable thing ever but I can manage. Wish me luck.

I never thought things would come down to this.

I've lost the support of my own parents. My father has withdrawn everything that he has ever given me from my name and now I'm essentially left to fend for myself. I feel forsaken and abandoned without a hope of escaping. My fingers shiver as I type this now, only hoping that maybe it will all be over soon. I'm in dire need of money, the most evil object in this world.

It seems so foul that I have been left like this. Soon I may even be kicked out of my own home and left out on the street. I have nothing else to lose besides shelter and that may soon become scarce as well. I feel misguided on my path of life and the map I've drawn for myself has been tampered with and now I've been led astray apparently.

I never thought I'd have to resort to begging over the internet to get what I need. I don't know what I should do anymore. I need help.

I need someone to help me drag myself out of the hole I've buried myself in.